And then I told

So the  weirdest thing has happened to me. I met this guy who seems really cool, and we've been hanging out quite a bit recently. It's great to have someone to hang out with up here who is just as stuck here in a sense as I am. We get along super well, and have been having fun looking at all the totally beautiful scenery of this little town. 
Then out of the blue I ended up inviting him over for dinner, which was surprisingly not a disaster. I know right, me having someone for dinner?! I took me like a year to feel comfortable eating dinner with my boyfriend, and still sometimes I can't do it. Anyways. So we ended up hanging out at my place until like 1:30 in the morning, and he crashed in the spare and whatever, great fun evening. BUT. We were talking about smoking, how he is trying to quit and I'm a social smoker, and whatever, when totally out of the blue I told him about being bulimic. I know I'm probably being EDNOS, but no one outside of the ED and medical community knows what that is.  WHAT. THE. ACTUAL. FUCK. IS. WRONG. WITH. ME. I have never told anyone, even my boyfriend of two years only has a vague idea. And I've known this person for like a week and there it is?! I have no idea how that happened. In some ways I wish I could take it back, but in some ways it's actually alright to have someone who can't turn around and tell all the people at home about it who knows and I can vent to. So maybe it's a good thing, but I doubt it. I'm relatively sure this is going to come back and bite me in the ass at some point, but it's too late to change that now I guess. 
Anyways, I'm in a fasting thing right now it seems, I'm working on close to 40 hours, and this wasn't even intentional, it just seems to have happened that way. I just don't feel like food, and all of a sudden it's been almost two days. 
In other news, I am down three more pounds yay! Next goal is only two pounds away now.
Ciao
Charlie